Yes, today I am a follower of Jesus, and have been since April 2004; which was when Jesus set me free from the darkness in my life, and brought me into the light.
From 2 years of age my biological father wanted to kill me, and then walked out of my life; never to return. This left me feeling abandoned, worthless, unloved and incomplete.
As a result of this I tried to commit suicide at 9 years of age, but that was just the beginning of my suffering. From my teens through to my adult life I suffered emotional sexual and physical abuse at the hands of men.
This resulted in me wanting to take my own life on several occasions.
In 2004 I went to America and visited a church when the message preached was on forgiveness.
Something within my spirit was being shaken. I agreed with the message with my mind, but it had not yet entered into my heart. I knew that there were people who I needed to forgive, because there were ways in which we don’t reach God’s standard. I had, in many ways, not reached God’s standard. When I got back to my hotel room I got angry with God. I shouted out in despair, why had He allowed the abuse. I felt so depressed and anxious I tried once again to kill myself.
As I tried to take the tablets the pill bottle fell out of my hands and I felt God’s love surround me.
I knew, for the first time, light at the end of the tunnel. That light was Jesus.
Since meeting with Jesus my life hasn’t been perfect. I have turned my back on God for four years, and tried to fill the void with drugs and sex, but God’s love always brought me back to Him.
With the help of prayer and reading the Bible I have been set free from drug addiction, suicide and low self-esteem.
I know that there are other things that need to be dealt with, and I pray that God will continue to heal and deliver me from all those things which could destroy my life.
However I know with all my heart, mind and soul that God always keeps His promises. He promises to set the captives free, and to give us a hope and a future.
No matter what life throws at me, I know that one special day I will be with God in heaven for ever.